Happy New Year!

At the end day of this year i decide to stay at home. No finial count down in the city square that will be a boring night. But i don't know why i don't interest in this any more although i have done this for many years.
Anyway i still wish my friends will have a healthy and wealthy year. Happy New Year 2010.

talk a little about myself

At my age the computer is not a major tool of entertainment. It's a not strange matter even i haven't turn on the power for weeks or months. Sometimes i msn with my friend then she will write "call you ". For us talking on the phone is a easier and better way than typing the words or choose some strange pattern for expressing our moods. My friends, they don't have blogs, not to mention the facebook etc. Of course i don't play any games on line. Being a person of Virgo, adventure and excitement are not my hobbies now and forever. My dad didn't have chance to get education in school but he always teach us life education everywhere. He loves us and has responsibility in family. I could be proud to say that we are not selfish persons to our friends.

滿

I put the food beside the word on the ice box. In the picture the food is not the main actor but the Chinese word. It's a good and important word at the Lunar Chinese Year. Every end of the year we will stick a new one but the word is the same one. The word means full in English. It will be a good symptom of having enough food in the next year. Right word at the right place just likes we speak the right word at the right time.

sense of direction

Last Sunday i planed to go to the country to see a arresting house which i had noticed it in the orchard and farm about two months ago. Dad an i were sitting in the car but the GPS was not working. I felt I couldn't go anywhere except the downtown. I don't like to drive on the highway where i think it is a place filled with the trouble especially if we miss the exit. No wounder they say that living in the modern time whether we rely on the science and technology products too much.

As expected i went the wrong direction at the beginning, luckily i find the right way immediately. Compare me with my female friends I always think i have a good sense of direction when i am driving. According to the faith i didn't wast too much time to get there and the other place. But GPS is still an important device in my car. So far i still need it.

still miss you so much

Today i finally decide to face and deal with the problem. I might exaggerate the the tidy thing which i correct the " about myself" of my blog. My dear dog-sister, Xiao Hei, she moved to my mind. Now I should write this there is one black dog, Dou Dou, in my family.

SOUTHERN TAIWAN! GO!!

Sympathies for the victims in this disaster of southern Taiwan especially the heroic rescuers.

be humble

My sister and I planed to move to the country in the earlier of this year. So if we had time we drive around the village of the Kaohsiung country. But after the typhoon Morakot our hearts were broken. The people, the land, the house and the view all have been changed. The flood, the mudslide and the damage by the human being caused this disaster of the south of Taiwan. The more damages by the human being makes, the stronger power by the nature fights back. We must be humble before the nature. May the Buddha bless us especially those survivals to pass through the pain and rebuild a better life.

test

My friend mailed this to me!

Oh! My goodness! I am really old enough or stupid enough.

How:

1. Press Start.

2. To memorize where the numbers are on the map and try placing the numbers from the lowest to the heighest.



3. Computer will tell you ____your score-- how old your brain is ---

my dad's story

There are two stories which he told us or his friends many times. One of them i have written in Chinese in this blog. They were all happened in China at his young age. We always describe metaphorical the life like seasoning then this case must be the sour one. Every time while he told us he was waving his hands and acting himself of that time, we felt sorrow and pity. It means he is missing his mom and the time in China. I hope i could write the detail with my poor English as possible as i can.



My dad seldom talk about his father who he had passed away early when he was a kid. So when he was a teen age boy my grandma wanted him to go to the downtown of Beijing where his uncle run a small restaurant to seek help or a job. But my grandma even hadn't have the money for the cost to Beijing. His mom just give him a bag of flour in case dad could buy food instead of money. The worse was on the way he met a Japan's soldier who insisted that the flour in the bag was a poison stuff. Of course we heard a lot of what the Japan's soldier had done in China. It was a wrong time evolved the evil ambition which harmed deeply the innocent people.

Anyway dad was full of fear and panic, he grabbed a handful flour into his mouth and said: poison??? It is just a bag of flour! Then the soldier swung his hand and said: move!! Dad even imitate the tone of that soldier.

It's hard to image the second result at that time.

tree

At May of this year, my mom need a company to take one day trip of Fencihu (奮起湖) which in the Alishan National Scenic Area阿里山國家風景區. In fact i was a little disappointed the view from bus window looked on the mountain. I didn't see many large areas of the tea plantation( the view of my mom's back ) instead of Areca catechu 檳榔樹 has been grown in the most area of the mountain. There are higher economic benefits than the tea plantation but its environmental reservation is worse. It's not easy to get a balance between the wealth and moral.

Two years later my family will move out. I hope i could take the old and big tree in our yard with us. It is almost my age. We need a place to keep my dog and my favorite tree. Am i greedy?

Welcome

Welcome to my home town city. The party is going on. There is a lot of changes in Kaohsiung. If you visit here you will like the sensibility which the kaoshiung citizens to the strangers. We are the warm persons. So welcome to Kaohsiung. That will be my honor to be your guide if you need a city tour.

after forty

A drama director said he have changed a lot about facing the work depression after forty years old. He have a new vision and character to deal with the problem. I guess he may as like as my age. He didn't explain too much why the transition is forty. But at that moment I think we all have an insight about life at the age of forty. Maybe it will be a shallow review when i am fifty but in this moment i think i am really different from before. I still urge to find the answer why is forty. It came quietly and brought me so huge shock.

again

A young boy for his selfish urge to abuse a dog just for his blog's high numbers of visitors. What a immature thought! How could you let a dog smell the laughing gas so that the dog barked uncomfortably and trembled with fear. Even worse i still can hear your sound of laugh in the video. Why don't you put your stupid face of smelling the laughing gas on the blog!

generation's gap

It was rainy heavily with the thunder that was scary to me. Sometimes we will curse somebody he will be hit by the thunder if he do bad things or full of lies. But it seems my generation's old joke.
This afternoon i went to the gas station, I asked the young employee about my member card which maybe had lost here last time. After he answered me and he said the word to me "lightening" then came a thunder like a cannon. I patted my heart lightly and murmured to myself. The young man asked me whether i am afraid of the thunder. I replied him yes but i regreted the answer immediately. I didn't want him to think i try to be cute like a eighteen girl. I probably have done many evil things, i said countinuely but the situation is getting worse. There was no words but silence between us. He may think where the crazy woman comes from?

where are you?

Recently most people are talking about the China no matter is politics or business trade in Taiwan or in the other countries. It reminds me when i was twenty- four my English conversation teacher may older than me five years had told to me some words face to face in the class.

me: Are you interesting in learning Chinese?

teacher: Why?

me: They said China may will be a remarkable country in the feature. Perhaps Mandarin will be an useful language.( Forgive me my poor English i might exaggerate the news on the newspaper )

teacher: I may die already.

My dear dog-sister

I don't have many friends keeping touch now if you count with your one hand that will be enough. I had ever doubt whether is my character. Later I knew there are many periods in our life and something or someone will come and go. They always say life will keep going and the sun still rise in the east whatever your life have changed.

I think i am lucky enough at my age to go through the pain first which someone i love and close so much left me. I tried to be cool recently because i should hide my sad emotion especially there are elders at home in Taiwan's custom. I must stop talking about her although i still have so many words to write down....Maybe next time..

The seventh day

We have tried to be normal everyday after Xiao Hei left us. But it seems impossible cose more sighs we breath when the time we should do something for her on her routine. I don't know what should i say now. I write and delete words for many times. Tomorrow will be the seventh day after she left us in Chinese tradition social convention she will back home. Maybe for you it's a idle fancy but for me i really hope she will back and eat the meal we prepare for her. Still miss her so much.

A deformed morning

There are so many emotions in my mind but right now i couldn't make any sound or write down something to remember her, my dear company and family, Xiao Hei.
She is in the heaven and be a black angle now.
I have already missed her so much.
This morning was a torture to us.
I would never forget you, my lovely dog-sister.
We will love you forever wherever you are.

Not guilty for youth

After Chinese New Year I got the flu from my younger sister and she also infected the flu to my older sister and my dad. In the news the flu virus this year is mutation and stronger than before. Taking one day for rest i got better but i had been weak and no strength for five days. Could i say again? I feel i am an old woman. In Taiwan the elders always say when the weather changes in every seasons. It will rain in that moment. It will be hotter or colder after every raining day.
On the same principle, i feel i am weaker than before at every time when i was back from the clinic or hospital. Just like that nurse's respondence which made me impress. My sister with me and dad went to the clinic, my sister saw the nurse wore the summer uniform and said: You are so brave. Guss what? She answered that i am young to us directly and gave a injection on my arm. At that time i had no strength to answer her. The pain was on my arm and heart. Maybe it's a excuse to me. What could i respond her? It's the truth what did she say.
When i was young...... Forget it! My youth has gone!

reconsideration

Chinese Lunar New Year, be honest i am afraid of hearing these words. It's really make me exhausted and broke. Unluckily my dog, Dou Dou, was sick at the eve night before the Chinese Lunar New Year. It's so embarrassed to call the doctor to see Dou Dou at that day which was a important day and a meal of the whole year for the Chinese people. She still didn't eat anything.
At the second day we changed another hospital and heard a worse news. Dou must have a surgery to excise her uterus and ovary. The vet told us her pus in the uterus will infect her belly if the situation is getting the worst. Next day of the surgery we went to the animal hospital to see Dou, the assistant of the vet told us we were right to take my dog here in the first time. There was a dog just died he point to that dog. I felt so sorry to see that dog's back.
The dogs could not talk to us they are sick. They all depend on us to make the decision for them. Maybe Dou will go to the same place with that poor dog if we didn't cancel the plan for the holiday. Now everything is all right. We still have the last two days to sightsee nearby my city with my parents.

No coffee - day 2

In the beginning of 2009, it seems not to go well for me. I went to the doctor yesterday because my heart beat 94/minute. I felt that my heart beat heavily and almost leaped out from my chest. Frankly i was scared at that time. Finially i got the words from the doctor more exercisse and no coffee any more. Of course I know these before but they were spoken from a doctor to you. It's a serious problem that i must take care to deal with. So there are two days of no coffee. As for the exercise, could i do it from tomorrow! Yes, from tomorrow!